Neglecting How Things Truly Are

I’ve lost my old luxury of being able to just write without thinking. Perhaps I shouldn’t have deleted my old blog. I was able to survive for the anonymity, even though I was never more naked then I was there. Yet here, I feel like an infinite number of mismatched jigsaw puzzles that will never seem to fit. What am I even trying to say every time? These words don’t come easily to me. I seem to be racking my brain to think of what else to write here. My mind is not chaotic. In fact, it’s too quiet. So […]

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What We Don’t Have

There’s a tendency among people to always want what they don’t have. It’s perfectly natural but it’s also a tragic irony. To another, your life might be a dream come true while their life might be your dream likewise. In the end, we choose not to be grateful for what we do have…making us utterly miserable. Of course, unless we choose not to be anymore. Recently facing this irony again and again among different people is a harsh reminder to not fall into that cycle. Or should I say, it’s to tell me to fall out of that cycle? ***  A […]

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When the Past is No Longer Relevant

I was going through my old blog, thinking what piece of writing I could reuse. It was the attempt to keep up with my present blog despite my lack of inspiration. However, as I read on and on, I couldn’t think of reposting any of it without cutting some parts out from here or there. But it still wouldn’t work. The entirety of my words was completely in the moment back then. It was to the point that I could no longer relate those very words to my present. My past self, who had written them, were no longer relevant. […]

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Lack of Will

A sudden urge of anger coursed through me at not finding my workout clothes. I used to have anger problems but not anymore. I was rather looking for an excuse subconsciously to not workout. Rather it was not me trying to avoid working out, but rather my attempt of avoiding all work in general. For the past three weeks, I have just been doing the bare minimum to get by. I would do the assignments last minute and barely touch my writing. However, it clashed with the huge list of work I expected to get done during this summer. I had […]

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