Countdown

My year began barely¬†functioning… For days I thought of beginning with those words. At the same time, right after, I would think how dramatic it was to say that. To an extent it was true. But those words could also be interpreted as highly uneventful, which is also an accurate description of the start of 2018 for me. In fact every year for me. I have never done or made resolutions. I find them pointless. Or should I say, I wish to find them pointless? Just like I found the whole excitement or planning behind the celebration of New Year’s […]

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To Not Care

Flakers. There exist a few individuals in one’s life where their words value to nothing. However, I truly believed that someone made the time for you if they believed you’re already worth it or worth the investment thinking you would become someone to them. It could be with the expectation of becoming a person they met once in a while but gave you a good time or a best friend you would spend a lifetime knowing. But my belief shattered after meeting several frustratingly new people in my life that told me I was growing in a generation where the […]

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Having No Expectations

I’m greedy. I have selfish wants to fulfill. Happiness to achieve. Desires to be met.¬†But it also just means that I’m human. And when you’re human, constant expectation haunt you. Like… I expect you to love me because I love you. I expect you to care because I’m trying every day to make you care as much as I do. I expect to do well because I’m studying my ass off for this exam. Yet often our expectations don’t match up with the results, and it hurts like hell. So like a mantra I try to brainwash myself to imagine […]

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