Catch Yourself Before You Fall

I wish I could write this peacefully. But there are quite more people than I would like that do not know the meaning of personal space. However, I’m not sure if it’s because I’m tinier than most. Then again, I do live in New York, where personal space does not seem to exist especially in subways and large crowded areas like Times Square. Okay, moving on from my rant, I’m still going to try and write this. I have begun to feel embarrassed. The past few years I felt the need to defend myself. I felt as if I needed […]

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Jaded and Tired

I do not feel regret but rather I question my recent actions. I question my lack of presence on this blog. I question my choice to miss my classes. I question my sudden choice to¬†opt out of my last minute trip to D.C to comfort my sister. I question my need to sleep so much these days, at least 12 to 15 hours. I truly wonder what my reasons are behind my actions. I have been living day by day, a huge leap for someone like me who only could see from ten steps ahead of her. However, I have […]

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3 Weeks

For 3 weeks, once again I was sucked in the vicious cycle I had tried so hard to get myself out of. One may call it a relapse. Another may call it being lazy. All I can think of at this moment is how utterly disappointed I am with myself. I have become self-conscious, rethinking ten times before writing anything. Before writing was my escape but now it became work. I had lost what I used to cope. I no longer had a way to stop the constant nagging and worrying once again eating away my mind. Thus, I had […]

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